STOP PROCRASTINATING OMFG.

not a very good week. i got back my ACC test which i flunked. like 18/60, (which is a 30% for goodness sake) and i also got back two maths tests. A trigometry one, 24/25 (96%) and a variations test, 4/20 (20%) . yeah you guessed it, i topped the class with my ultra swanging oh-so-wonderful marks.

the past few days i had been superly stressed up because of today's japanese exam. I HAVE TO do well, get at least a NINETY PLUS for this paper in order to pull the rest of my marks up, counting that i'm just an average in my class and there's so many smartypants out there in RI with a genius brain who make me feel like i'm just a another stupid girl. but i don't think that's gonna happen. last year, getting a ninety plus was easy. this year, it's just impossible. it's so hard, the paper and all, ESPECIALLY THE FUGGING ESSAY and i feel like i'm losing marks here and there. I SO NEED AN A1 AT LEAST OMG PLEASE PLEASE. or i will seriously cry. I really studied very hard for this test, put so much pressure on myself and went in today into the examination room and did my best. the rest, i leave it up to God. But oh my, dampened are my spirits. i really need this VERY BADLY.

fine, i shall stop ranting over an exam.

tomorrow! is the start of my exams. people may not see me around much anymore, online i mean. because i plan to study hard, I HOPE. I'm gonna really study for geography and science, cause i think that it's the only subjects that is study-able and able to pull me up. but really, my science and maths grades are total shit. what the hell am i studying for? i still get to go to tjc even if i fail right? but i promised myself that i'm gonna buck up. but so what? even if i do, my first half of the year's marks will pull me down in the end. sigh, i don't know. I'm just gonna study hard for these two subjects, and quick too. there's just too much to study i'm afraid that i can't finish >_<

towner-ing ! :D

ALOHA !

didn't update for so long cause i was just so busy with all the tests. er, no not exactly. I'm just lazy to come online hurhur x) been having so many tests this week, so i'm busy revising and studying. not as if i've improved this term, but still, i gotta study 'hard'. oh yeah, japanese exam next week. T_____T i have to do REALLY REALLY REALLY A BIJILLION TIMES BETTER if i want to pull up my marks with japanese. next week's exam is really important. I'm gonna study early and hope i don't forget everything by thursday. damn it, my class is like SO FRIGGIN' clever i feel like i'm too stupid and lousy to even belong together in that class. the highest a boy got was 39/40! and what did i get? a fugging 31/40. WTF. i wanna prove to myself that I can get back my standard like last year, when i used to top the class. i wanna prove to myself that though it's getting tougher it doesn't mean the marks i get will be lower, i'll work doubly hard. yes yes i will (: GANBATTE to me! hoho.

today, wasn't interesting in school. had maths test. oh please please let me get full marks this time. it's so RARE that i feel that i've aced a MATHS test in 3654633585 years! either full marks or something close would really make my day. i've never done well for maths before, but i hope trigonometry will change that (: trigonometry is interesting, i think it's the most interesting topic of maths so far and i think it's quite easy. i think faster with a calculator hoho. like, D-UH okay x)

after that, wenqian, kelly, ziying and me headed to sakae sushi, at eastpoint (the best shopping mall in the world HURHUR). it was my first time there. ate sushi and couldn't get enough of the sashimi x) the lemon sorbet too! yummilicious :3 spent a bomb there, like 50 bucks plus altogether, but didn't break our record of 70 bucks plus at swensens x) well. then kelly and ziying started to fool around again.

"hey let's all act like we're mentally retarded so we don't have to pay the bill! or we can laugh madly till they chase us out of here and yay! no pay bill!"

right. we shot videos of them trying to act spastically, like crossed-eyed and all, sticking the chopsticks up their teeth etc. HILARIOUS I TELL YOU. i laughed till i cried. then we attempted to shoot a SUPER-DUPERLY rushed 30 second green tea commercial HOHO. oh yeah, and some people gave us the slants and the eyes and looked pissed at us for making so much noise. can't help it la, wherever we go we're bound to turn up the volume x) we can really lose it sometimes, it must be from all that stress x)

then went to popular to get some writing materials to motivate us to study and revise (: then came home. bleah, i gotta start to study now. exam is starting next week. i just gotta endure for two weeks of solid studying then i'm gonna let loose and just go wild after the end of years (:

i'm so looking forward to it (:

friday, EMPHASIZE.

i wanna talk about friday (: it's the most interesting of the past three days hoho.

friday i had chinese test. i really studied hard for the whole week, juggling between japanese, science and chinese, the three major subjects' tests were all on this week. so yeah, kinda stressed out. i studied like really hard for chinese too, but i think i'm gonna flunk it. and no it's not like science, when i flunk chinese I'M UPSET. because i do put in effort but nothing pays off. basically because like most of the paper actually depends on your chinese standard itself, and not how hard you study. you can memorise the whole textbook and still fail the chinese test. like OMFGWTF the paper was hard. i couldn't understand the passage i was given at ALL. and i think i flunked my summary too. there wasn't enough time for me to finish and i left it written in half pen, half pencil. and left MORE questions blank. IT'S SO DEMORALISING LA. i studied hard but i'm like letting everyone else down when i get my results back. i really promised myself to improve this term and not slack so much but still, sigh. okay, i shan't think about it anymore. after all what's done is done, if i fail, then i fail, the whole class will fail together too x) i did study, so i guess i'll just have to try harder next time (:

then after school had some lantern making competition. kelly made this big crappy rubbishy enormous lantern which look so spastic. of course we didn't win la. but looking at it was hilarious. i cracked up everytime i think about it x)

then had literature roleplay rehearsal. OMFG i'm so glad we didn't make it in, or else we would have to perform on monday in front of the whole level some shakespere play. oh man if we had to i think i would just kill myself x) yippee~

then kelly, grace, ziying and me walked to KFC for lunch/dinner (: hoho what fun! at KFC we took a lot of pictures doing really gay stuffs, tried to take a picture of xuanchen too HAHAHA and we succeeded! yay mission accomplished for you-know-who (: kelly is AMAZING. she spent like 3 hours eating her stupid banditto! x) like she just chews really slow hahaha. then walking back to school, it was one of the LONGEST walks ever. not that it was long, just that we took a lot of pictures and videos along the way! and we had a great time just gaying around and taking pictures with almost everything! hmm, let's see if can remember what we did.

we took a video of us trying to look like we were PEE-ING like boys into the drain, also another video of kelly and ziying trying to do some pole-dancing with the lamp post x) oh yes and along the way we met xuanchen and his bball gang, and they asked for the cam cause they stripped nicholas hoho. under broad daylight muahaha. oh yes, we also took pictures of us acting like eygptians. and we climbed over the railings and sat by the ledge with our legs dangling above the kallang river. o_o;; damn it was scary i tell you, we were trying to look like we were committing suicide muahaha x) what fun. MANY MANY other pictures and stuff too, but kelly's computer spoilt, so i'll just have to wait till she gets it fixed before i get to receive the videos and pictures =\

then we had mid-autumn festival in school from 5pm to 9pm. some people carried lanterns around the place. i thought the celebration was just boring. but it was fun to listen to people karaoke at the basketball court. kelly and me sat on the grass and just stoned and we played some 'light-sticks frisbee' with our other classmates. after the whole celebration, me, kelly, wenqian, eunice and ziying went to KFC again to eat some supper, and ziying tried to pretend she was the ghost hoho. it's quite freaky walking at night actually, even though i was with my friends. eunice kept scaring me talking about the horrid ghost stuffs. then from kfc till the time we went home eunice talked to us about her family and how violent it is at home, it's pretty interesting actually. oh! we also saw this ambulance, like someone met with an accident or something. it came out in the papers next day! that an elderly man got hit by a truck and flung unto a taxi's path and died. scary. and eunice kept insisting that someone was murdered or chopped up HAHAHA. silly.

hmm, i'll probably post up the pictures we took next time (: i think i'll miss 2G and all my girl pals whom i spent so many wonderful memories with, i think i'll really really do. man, i'm starting to feel attached to 2G really bad that it's bad! damn, they do make life so much brighter. muchos love (:

when girls get violent muahaha x)

hoho, second day at school and look what happened. okay i'll just get to the highlights of the day (:

had chemistry test today, didn't study much but i had pretty a lot of confidence for it. i thought science was just easy bananashit. hoho, HOW WRONG I WAS. i did the test, half unsure of what i was writing and doing. hmm, i guess i won't do well this time, made a few mistakes already. but i'm not bitter about it, i think science tests are exciting i don't know why x) i like studying for them and the results i get always makes me pleased, although the results aren't good all the time. but blah, with a sucky chem teacher it's all up to me to do well. at the most, the whole class flunks the test together with me teehee x)

then after english lesson, decided to go toilet, bladder full lol. when i came back, kelly and yanting were on one side of the teacher's table pushing hard. a few of my other classmates were on the other side pushing too. WOW, PLAYING TUG-O-WAR WITH THE TEACHER'S TABLE HUH. i decided that i wouldn't get involved so i went back to my seat and watched instead (:

for your info: kelly and yanting when put together, are VERY SUPER DUPER INHUMANLY STRONG GIRLS WITH A HELL LOAD OF ENERGY (:

and so, with all that pushing, it was an intense fight between both sides but kelly and yanting were on the winning side. hoho, they were just too strong for everybody, EVEN THE TABLE. because, right at that moment..

KABOOM!

the teacher's table broke. yes, literally.


it looked like this. hoho, the aftermath of the strong girls at tug-o-war, the violent edition.

looked like a wreck. everyone screamed in horror because coming to realisation that they've just wrecked the teacher's table. NO MORE TABLE FOR THE TEACHER HOHO.

"OMG! WHAT ARE WE GONNA DO?!"
"relax everybody, calm down!"
"MAN WE JUST BROKE A TEACHER'S TABLE!"
"this is so memorable for class 2G!"

thus, the responsible chairperson WENQIAN went to report about the damage. and we had no choice but to move the teacher's table out of the class. gosh, we sure will miss it x) BUT! we held a mini-funeral for it (: just for remembrance because we're such a bunch of nice people, so kind even unto the non-living things x)


that's kelly & me MOURNING. T-T

oh, but ANYHOW! we're planning yet another sinister scheme, that probably we might break the whiteboard next, or just cut a hole in the OHP screen, suggestion generously contributed by yixian (: (oh, the ceiling fan is already spoilt by the way.)

MUAHAHA! LOOK AT WHAT HAPPENS WHEN GIRLS GET VIOLENT! so boys, DON'T mess with us (:

okay, after that the principal spoke to us too. wasn't as serious as i thought. i thought we were going into his office to sit down and chat over tea but really, he just called us into a big room and made a speech. wasn't really listening because i've already made up my mind! i'm going TA and there's no turning back already, and i'm looking forward to it a lot (: so yeah, no brainwashing for me.

gosh, i'm missing the teacher's table already T-T

HOHO, school ! (:

OMFGYUSS. FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL! I FUGGING LOVE MONDAYS MUAHAHA. x)

got to see my friends today. really happy (: i missed them so much without them my life is like, half meaningless lol. well, but last night i didn't get to sleep much, i don't know whether it's because i'm too excited or is it because i've been sleeping late the past few nights and sleeping a lot during the day that's why i was awake mostly throughout the night =\ but still, monday isn't a stressful day so i still can cope. see monday, i like :9

but heck, as usual my body can't function without sleep. i wasn't mentally tired, just physically tired. man i think all the muscles on my body have converted themselves into FATS already. no training and i haven't been moving much. i'm like some PIG. eat, sleep, stone & shit x) oh well, so i wasn't really paying attention in class today, kept dozing off. like the norm, looking like THIS AGAIN.


HANZYING says that that's me and kelly's PERMANENT position we're in. we never sit with a proper posture (:

hurhur. then after classes zying, qian, kelly & me went KFC's. blah, i ate my cheesefries but hardly touched my burger ><" it's like an eating disorder without training. AND, dad wants to bring me to the doctor's because i'm eating like less than half my usual amount of food =\ please no. i'm just full, i don't know why i ain't eating yo.

damn, the PRINCIPAL's gonna talk to me and my friends on wednesday ><" i bet it's about leaving dhs. i mean, mr sng's a really good principal, but i'm not giving him a chance to show me that he'll change dhs and stuff. i've already made up my mind, and i don't wanna change it. i hope mr sng doesn't. he's so gentle we're like breaking his poor little heart if we leave but ARGH. I SHAN'T BE SWAYED ON WEDNESDAY. but still, i'm SCARED. i mean, wtf the PRINCIPAL is gonna talk to me not some HOD or teacher you know.

anyways, i did a few personality quizzes cause i found them interesting (:

Your Working Style

You have a great deal of warmth, but may not show it until you know a person well. You keep your warm side inside, like a fur-lined coat. You are very faithful to duties and obligations related to ideas or people you care about. You take a very personal approach to life, judging everything by your inner ideals and personal values.

You stick to your ideals with passionate conviction. Although your inner loyalties and ideals govern your lives, you find these hard to talk about. Your deepest feelings are seldom expressed; your inner tenderness is masked by a quiet reserve.

In everyday matters you are tolerant, open-minded, understanding, flexible, and adaptable. But if your inner loyalties are threatened, you will not give an inch. Except for your work's sake, you have little wish to impress or dominate. The people you prize the most are those who take the time to understand your values and the goals you are working toward.

Your main interest lies in seeing the possibilities beyond what is present, obvious, or known. You are twice as good when working at a job that you believe in, since your feeling adds energy to your efforts. You see the needs of the moment and try to meet them. You want your work to contribute to something that matters to you--human understanding, happiness, or health. You want to have a purpose beyond your paycheck, no matter how big the check. You are perfectionists whenever you care deeply about something.

You are curious about new ideas and tend to have insight and long-range vision. You are interested in books and language and are likely to have a gift of expression; with talent you may be excellent writers. You can be ingenious and persuasive on the subject of your enthusiasms, which are quiet but deep-rooted. You are often attracted to counseling, teaching, literature, art, science, or psychology.

The Artist

You love freedom and want to follow your heart's desires. You might not be at your best when dealing with other people. Once you are given the opportunity to work your chosen way, your gift will shine. A tip for you is not to concentrate too much on your own work, but widen your focus and consider the opinions of other people.

What's on your mind?

You'll drop everything to be with the partner of your dreams, and you'll give their sentimental presents rather than expensive ones. Nevertheless, your spontaneous nature does have a limit, and when the romance is over, you'll head back to work to pick up the pieces.

Get to know yourself better

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

SCHOOL TOMORROW! :D

HALLELUJAH AGAIN! yes, never been happier to return back to school cause i feel like i'm wasting my time during the holidays and with school i'll be so much more productive and it'd be 384369595 tonnes more fun (:

YESTERDAY:
sleep, slack, stone, stone somemore, sleep, still sleeping, eat, stone, sleep again.

TODAY:
sleep, cook, eat, slack, stone, sleep, stone again, stone somemore, sleep more, eat, sleep.

HOHO how wasted la. when i could have done so much more things. let's just face it, I'M DOWNRIGHT LAZY x) y'all don't have to tell me that, it's something i can't really change :D well, it's also partially because i wasn't feeling well therefore wasn't eating much so i didn't really have much energy to do anything besides stoning and sleeping. YES I SLEEP LIKE A PIG DAMMIT. 14 HOURS A DAY.

AND IT'S NOT MY RECORD.

my record was 16 hours, ONE SHOT. (: *proud* lalala.

but who cares, tomorrow i'm going to school! ah, I LOVE MONDAYS! :D

DHDFGDFHFD.

here i am, sitting in front of the computer wearing a jacket and with the fan blowing at me. outside, it should be at least 38 degrees celcius. that's right, i'm cold and feverish, i don't know why. and i've got an injured butt and my muscles feel like they've frozen up and i can't move without moaning. hoho, look how much muscles can ache without regular training. i think i'll be weaker from now onwards, i am physically weak in the first place without badminton training. but i do not plan to touch badminton again, i want something new, (like the electric guitar hoho) (:

&! i don't know why my vision blacks out after i've sat down for a long time. my head will start to spin and my eyes will feel like it's gonna pop out any moment. then a few seconds later, my vision comes back. i don't think it could be a rush of blood to the head can it? @@;; it's freaky to feel unwell and i don't know the reason why.

did my chinese today, i don't plan on finishing my mock papers, no hurry to complete those. i need to write my japanese essay. i think what i've learnt fron my sensei i've thrown it all back at him already. man, what am i supposed to write about MY DREAM? @@;; i think i've been quite productive yet slack this week, but i feel okay about it. i can't wait for school to reopen next week! then i'll get to see all my friends again (:

alright, cutting hair tomorrow. i hope the hairdresser doesn't screw it up or i'll sock her face. man, my energy level's really close to zero today x_x;;

end of the ride

lost today's match, though we played rubber T-T uwa, the opponents weren't as tough as i thought they would be, as our scores were pretty close. but! because of my STUPID, USELESS, GOOD-FOR-NOTHING, WEAK BUTT, i couldn't perform my best. yeah, really tried to hold on despite the pain. i hope shirleen isn't angry with me =\ it was just a bad timing for an injured butt. but then again looking on the brighter side, maybe it's fated 'cause God wants me to stay home tomorrow and finish up my homework x) sigh, but i feel that it's wasted. but i'm not bitter nor sore about the outcome of today. shirleen really did a good job today trying to cover me (: proud of her. i, on the other hand was like crap lol. like, half-PARALYZED hoho. HOZY was line judging my match la. and i was running like some crippled with a useless left leg on court x)

well, nevermind. now i shall take the time to rest my butt and let it recover and then i can run again (: ok, you guys can call me crippled or pai ka or whatever lol. i don't mind hoho :D from now till end of the year i shall focus on studying for endofyrs. i hate doing homework, but studying is okay for me (: shall try to improve my grades this term, then i can go TA and just enjoy my time there (: but honestly it's hard for me to go back to what i used to be, after like half a year of slacking =\ rawr, i'm like the laziest person on earth la.

i love the song SWING SWING (: the all-american rejects are THE band! x) LALA.

good-for-nothing butt :D

today's match went pretty well, WE WON! (: hooray shirleen! hoho, didn't expect to win cause you know my confidence level just plunges to zero sometimes x) but yeah, partially because my opponent wasn't as strong as my other team mates' opponents so we could win (:

but oh, THE DRAMA! i was doing pretty okay on the first match actually, lots of strength and whatever. but then my opponent gave a drop and i dived in for a net but didn't realise, too quick. my opponent suddenly changed the direction of the ball, so i knew that i had to go for every ball and do my best, and not just let any ball slip away. one ball can be very costly you know x) and i didn't want to let shirleen down, so i tried to give a shot and take the ball but lost a bit of my footing and OH NO! pulled a muscle, in my butt or thigh i don't really know, connected la x) hurt really bad. now you can call me crippled or whatever x) can't do much with it except keeping it straight. bend it a little and it hurts like OMFGWTFDFHDSRGDSGD!!! x) hoho. so basically my second match was just slacking, and i'm sorry shirleen you had to run the whole court to save the shuttle! MUAH! but we still won, and proved something to God and ourselves (: or else it would be damn wasted can.

but i MUST get well. tomorrow i'm playing against tkgs or xinmin. as usual i don't think i can whack anymore asses but i promised shirleen that i'll try my very very best. i think it's our turn to get our asses whacked but nevermind, i'll try my best to do well in tomorrow's match ok (: but i'm sorry, i can't push myself too hard or the injury will get worse T-T i hope it'll feel better tomorrow or arrrggghhhh. x_x;;

&! i'm sick. my head's feels like it's bloated with water and it's going to explode anytime and i'm feeling so feverish. well, not that i mind being sick, but i hope it isn't dengue fever. my place breeds a lot of these mosquitoes. rawr. i'm not feeling very well now.

TIME FOR MORE ESTASY AND SLEEP HOHO x)

this is to please you, HANZYING :D

HANZYING that dumbnut thinks my entries are as long as japan. okay, since she's so sweet i'll spare her the torture today (:

last night, dad brought home the new car, mazda 3. =\ wasn't a big deal about it, the car was okay, but i kind of feel guilty because i was the one who suggested the car model and he really bought it. like when did dad ever listen to me? O____o;; oh well, but yay cause the new car's stereo is like 245874685136584 times better than the old car's. pffft the old one was bananashit. :D

also, my allergy came back in the night. started itching really badly till my skin was red and puffy >_<" dang construction sites SDHSDHDFT. today morning, wasn't productive either. procrastinated a lot online. but i completed geog and maths tuition homework anyway. hmm, maybe cause my working speed was close to ZERO as either i had the tv or the music on (: hoho you know i never really can multitask especially with music on :D

i plan to make full use of tonight, probably finish up a bit of science. and wait for tomorrow, when both my parents are gonna be at home. DTHSEDHSD CRAP SHID FAMILY DAY POO. no peace at home tomorrow T-T

and, i finally can spell ESTASY right :D insomnia for the past few nights, shall go catch some sleep now.

update:
ARRRGGHH. DFHDFHFGHFDGF.

i have like a super short and hot temper, and i can't seem to change it lol. but now i'm ok (: gawd dad & mom are such fugging asses sometimes they make me wanna slap them. making things difficult for me. dammit. WHAT'S SO BLOODY DIFFICULT ABOUT TELLING ME THE TIME?!

got match tomorrow. promised shirleen that i'll TRY to kick as much asses as possible, although i'm not confident about it hoho.

shagged, no reason.

HOHO, TODAY !

woke up early in the morning and grabbed some breakfast. Pretty excited over yesterday so i didn't really sleep last night, was too happy too. (LIKE OMFG ELECTRIC GUITAR SPAZZ SPAZZ!)

hmm, since i decided that i'm serious about taking up lessons, then i should do something and get some basics right. i haven't touched my classical for a long time now, about 9 months plus omg. so i decided to bring out my guitar once more, and do jay chou's 'fine day'. OMFG i swear that 9 months can wipe out everything. what's left in my head is only the chords A, Em, D and G x) and yah, my fingers hurt again. i recall when i used to play the guitar everyday my fingers peeled badly and it hurt for a little while, before they became kind of numb to it and turned REAL SOLID WOI~ i bet i wouldn't even feel a thing if you poked a knife at my fingertips x) had to refresh my memory of the chords again, and this time, i'm just too slow at changing the chords @_@;; bah, maybe i gotta practice more. at least the more i practice, the readier i'll be ready to take one classes w00t! BRING IT ON BABY! x)

then i left the house and headed to starbucks to meet kelly to study. wasn't very productive, only completed maths and little of geog. but hey, math's stupid. all the sine and cosine and tangent thing is easy, but i'm just lazy to THINK. and it's like really troublesome to do the calculations too. (i got a problem with using the calculator properly lol) then we talked, listened to some music, and met up with ziying and her fellow guides rachel. we didn't get to go spastic today or take any photographs, it was a failure trying to take a picture of kelly sniffing her drugs lmao. just had lunch after that and walked around. didn't die from laughing today, just cracked lame jokes and gayed a bit in the sports shop.

then when we were walking, my toe suddenly started to cramp real bad. one of the longest cramps i ever had, even longer than the one i usually have on the soles of my foot or the calves. i swear we walked into like three stores and the cramp still didn't go away. it was kinda bad, like the toe just bends at some awkward angle and feels twisted and dislocated. like some alien foot, i swear. kelly wanted to take a pic of it, but was too late lol. then me and kelly were in the OP shop and she was telling me to massage my stupid toe and stretch it and show me how i should bend it to make the pain go IT WAS SUPER GAY CAN. and there i was leaning against a rack of clothes bending my foot the way she did it but MADE IT WORSE. couldn't walk for a few minutes without limping x) but can't blame kelly, she ain't no professional doctor lol. but the pain subsided later so everything's ok (: hoho.

i bought a necklace similar to the one i bought for this special person, (still is hoho :D) man i thought i'll never see the same kind of necklace again! well it isn't the same, but still, had the chinese character 'LOVE' on it. just too bad it wasn't like the one that i bought the first time, that has the japanese kanji 'LOVE'. i thought it was much nicer than this, but still, i bought it and yay i love it many many! (: im so gay hurhur. dropped by popular too, got some other stuffs. i realised that it's time i did shopping! (: heehee. maybe i'll ask kelly or shirleen along sometime, then we'll go gay again and maybe get chased out of the shops x)

but before that, i gotta save $$$. today i spent 30 bucks away like water argh. gotta learn how to save if i wanna shop man. i promise when school reopens i shall starve myself x)

dang, gotta finish up science and geography. maths can wait. should start on fugging chinese too. oh ya, plus my japanese essay >.<" i need to write about MY DREAM. OMFG WHAT DREAMS DO I HAVE? (being a rich taitai, start a candy company in japan, relax in hawaii blah blah, none.) i don't know what am i supposed to write on @_@;; so, maybe i should start finding a practical dream, i wanna write something that's real, and not just any fake-ups, that'd be hard to write on, not to mention in japanese. rawr, next stop, east coast park. i wanna go there and have some fun! (: oh, i think dad's bringing home a new car today whee (: OMFG GUITAR SPAZZ SPAZZ SPAZZ AGAIN!

@ starbucks, spinning pen. maths made me brain dead x_x;;

THE DRUGS :O ! (kelly's, aint got anything to do with me.)

*takes more estasy*

/edit: ESTASY; ESTASY; ESTASY. (i can't spell estasy right.)

OOH SHALALALALAAA !

yeah you heard me. I'm spazzing out because the thought of taking up guitar lessons is just making me HYPERVENTILATE LIKE WHOA !

OMFGWTF. DFHSDHDFFD i want the year to end NOW. i wanna go TA NOW. i ain't wanna sit through the rest of the year mugging for exams.

there's so much more i wanna do with my life.

omg i think i take too much estasy :D and i OMG-ing too much x)

no music, no life; TOTALLY

wet, dark and rainy sunday. but i don't mind, at least it's cooling. although the dark skies are a little creepy because it reminds me of the USA, and i can get a bit paranoid about it cause of the recent hurricane katrina paying new orleans a visit. man, the news i read on the papers everyday are just terrifying.

okay, on to lighter topics, guess what? dad gave me the green light to take up electric guitar classes after the end of years are over. DFHYDFDFHDRDTH. YUSS! x)

you see, when i was younger i took up piano, but decided to quit because i couldn't manage the theory and i was just too lazy to bother to put in any effort into practicing. on top of that, i kinda hated the teacher, so i decided to quit. but now, it's different. i've finally realised how important music is in my life, it's my source of strength, and also the only thing that can make me break down sometimes. you see, music is so wonderful, it's the world's most beautiful language. i can't imagine living in a life without music. This time I'm serious.

after stopping piano for about two years, i started picking up guitar on my own. it's really cool but without proper classes and being the lazy ass i am, it's hard to keep it up and it slowly started to fade away. sure, i know how to strum and pluck in a few different styles, but my memory is so bad that i can only manage a few chords. but i think with a little time and effort on my part, i'll master the guitar someday.

now badminton is clearly out of my life, i've decided that this is my life and i wanna do the things that i want to do and make the best out of it so, I'M TURNING BACK TO MUSIC (:

and when i go to tjc, i plan to join the guitar club (: if they decide to let me in with just the very basic foundation in music that i have hehe. it'll be good if i can get in, then maybe they'll teach me more methods and other way to play the guitar, then i won't be on my own (: but if not, maybe i might take up modern dancing, (although i can't say i'm good at it) but i want to have a new experience, I want to give a shot at it (:

so after my exams are done, I'll do enquire about classes on electric guitars, and hopefully i can get a good teacher (: daddy should be prepared to spend a big bomb, considering the new guitar and the amplifier and all. it's gonna be a hefty price hoho :D but one thing, i can't really decide whether i should take up the bass or the elects/guitar/whatever it's called.

i think being a bassist is cool, although not much to do but just some simple plucking and i know if put in a band i wouldn't be in the limelight much, but i think a bassist is very important. it gives the music the stable and solid feel to it, and hardens things up instead of all high and screeching notes. the music would be too light and floaty without a bass, therefore i think it's important. I also think that a bassist is cool, because you just stand there looking cool plucking the strongs and all, doesn't take too much energy or brains. (you see im just lazy, don't wanna use much of my brains even if i play hoho)

but i was at the YAMAHA store, and this guy whom i guess was working part time there took up the electric guitar and started to demonstrate the different ways you can use the guitar to play. he started with some screeching notes, then into some rock, and ended off with some jazz. OMFG SO COOL IF MY PARENTS WEREN'T THERE I WOULD HAVE SPAZZED OUT LIKE SOME DUMBNUT. x) besides, my dad started telling me that being a guitarist would be much better than a bassist because you can do more with it, plus you get to be in the limelight (hoho you see my dad is the opposite of me) it made sense, besides, you can do more music and melody with the elects/guitar/whatever you call it (: but i'll see about it, i can't wait for end of years to be over so i can start! I'm going to work hard, and i hope i won't give up halfway just like what i did to the piano (:

oh, i also want a new accoustic guitar, since i already got a classical one at home, but it costs like $500 bucks for the one i want. DADDYYYYY!!!~ x) $$$ (that's if i made it into TA's guitar club)

and I've also decided, just roughly, that when i grow older, like maybe when I'm done with my A levels, I'll take up drums, because I've always wanted to ever since i was twelve, because mom said no it spoils my ears blah blah and she doesn't have that much money to afford it plus she doesn't want me to give up halfway (knowing that I'm that sort of person hehe) so she said i could wait till I'm older. then she'll shut up when i buy myself a set of drums x) i hope i'll still have this drive 4 years down the road.

yay, my new drive in life would be music. I went one whole round wasting a few years before coming back to the same place where i started x) how very stupid. but I'm wiser and stronger now, I'll make the very best out of it.

OCTOBER PLEASE COME QUICKLY; BASS/ELECTS/GUITAR COME TO MAMA W00T! x)

oh great, i'm itching again, must be my allergy acting up x_x;;

dang, pffft.

just woke up, which was around 12 noon i guess. man I always sleep like a pig. It's my habit and I can't change it! can't stop myself from sleeping such long hours x) and i never do have naps, my naps are as long as sleeps. which is about like 546843684 hours teehee x) rawr, i need 12 hours to keep me awake, so that explains why i always look drugged in school (:

I've got lots of holiday homework, i don't know how am I going to complete it T-T but I'm looking forward to monday, I'll try talking to dad so that he'll let me go out with kelly. Then we'll sit at starbucks and do our homework yay! starbucks is THE place for homework yo (: can't wait to clear out my homework, just staring at it gets on my nerves.

today, I'm not going to do much, maybe just play some music in the house, other than that, maybe watch a lot of tv, because weekends mom and dad are always home, and they won't allow me to use the computer much, and it's not like i have any online games to play or there's anything interesting to do online =\ saturdays and sundays are most boring, like VERY BORING. i'm so sick of these two days, cause all I'll be doing is just homework, (even do touch any) and just slacking around the house, no interesting stuffs, no fun. It's not like school when yo uget to see your wonderful friends and fool again acting all gay x)

ooh and I did something which made me feel accomplished yeseterday (: i finished writing what i wanted to. (okay, doesn't make much sense but still, i'm not going to leak out much about it.) bah, so bottom point is, i got this idea in my head and decided to write about it, and it was a miracle that i could actually finish the whole thing yesterday muahaha! i'm THE GREAT ONE HOHO :D today i hope i can touch it up, my english is deproving loads =X

let's see, mom bought beehoon for breakfast =\ not that i like beehoon anyway, i wanted to eat cereal. bah but it's kinda obvious that I'm getting pretty 'whatever' now. I mean, in the past I used to fight it out with them over the slightest things like they'll say "BEEHOON" and i'll say "NO WAY CEREAL!" and then on and on until i show them that they aren't gonna win, so i skipped breakfast. =\ hmm, yeah i'm just stubborn, the more they ask me not to do something, the more i want to have my own way. but today i'll eat the beehoon for once, because i made a deal with them that tomorrow i'll eat my cereal x) wierd i know. but yah, my family is always like that. it's not like i giving a fugging shit about them anymore.

i'm gonna listen to more gstefani, her music is absolutely masterpieces ok. OUT~

hallelujah !

last day of school! w00t! finally it's like the september holidays. it's amazing how fast time flies. another 10 weeks just passed by like this. and after next week, it will start all over from 1, and here we go again, mug for end-of-years. but after that, i get to look forward to a homework-less holiday! (: that's some pretty good shit yo, 'cause i never got to enjoy a really good holiday without worrying about homework and projects ever since secondary school started. i feel it's like re-living the primary six years again when it's post-PSLE period, when everyone just slacked like there's no tomorrow. it's time i had a good rest (: and then i'll start my life at 15 next year, and really live it to my fullest (: i hope x)

today i went to school drugged again and all, couldn't really open my eyes x) slept at 11 plus last night but i kept thinking and thinking about stuffs so i ended up falling asleep much later. slacked through lit, science and geog today. friday's periods before recess are soooo boring and slack i was kinda looking like this during the lessons.


the left one, that is. that's me. kelly's the one with the book smacked on her face x)

hoho, then during chinese felt so drunk it was so hard to keep my eyes open. in the end i looked down at my book trying to hide my face, can't let teacher catch me sleeping again x) the last period of the day is maths! maths teacher was so sweet today hoho, (i actually don't really like her heh) she bought us chocolates! allowed us to eat during her lesson too (: i ended up paying attention to my M&Ms and not really paying attention hehe. but gah, so much homework for the holidays. oh well, guess i'll try to finish them all this holidays. at least do my best one last time before i relax during december x)

then had lunch with shirleen in school, was broke so i had to. the canteen food sucks major though, EW. after that i headed home. shirleen and i went spastic again in the bus, doing the really gay actions with our fingers while listening to her mp3 heh. well, when shirleen's around how can one not be spastic and all? x) rawr, but i had to walk home in the rain. was pretty drenched by the time i reached home. i like walking in the rain though, i think it's a really good feeling, but i was more worried about getting my books and bags and stuffs wet x( because they become all soggy and bleah~

so here i am now, wasting my time online. probably i'd start on my homework either tomorrow or sunday (: OUT~

get refreshed with a cup of cuppucino

there's no rewind button in life, only a restart (: